I'm hurting in every possible way right now. I just get this feeling that he likes someone else, which is understandable. I kind of wish he would get married or something, that way I would be forced to push him out of my mind and not hope for anything, because there would be nothing to hope for.
My back hurts and I am thinking of seeing a doctor. I wish I could just go to sleep, but I have a Jazz Ensemble concert tonight, though my mind is not honestly on that. I wish I could post my piece on my MySpace, just so he'd see it and find out, not that he would see it, I seriously doubt that he reads it at all. I doubt that I matter to him, and it just honestly hurts, but it's really my own fault for getting my hopes up so damn high and putting my eggs in one basket. Now I have an omelet on my face and I don't even like eggs at all.
I am just mad at him right now. I think I just need to not even think about him for a really long time, until I am completely over any remote feelings that I have towards him. I'm going to go write in squareone now. Bye.
*Racecar*
<< Tuesday, Dec. 12, 2006@4:14 p.m.>>